Drowning in a Pool of My Own Ambition

I know the title is a little dramatic, but I just liked the sound of it so much when it popped into my head. A neutral alternative title could be “One Thing at a Time.”

I think I got a little overexcited about 2017. 2016 was full of change and delays and detours; I was laser-focused on getting back on track and making up for lost time. We’re one month in and my laser focus has turned into a light show with beams shooting every which way. It’s getting hard to see where I’m going.

Last weekend, my Sunday was derailed in about five minutes as I started thinking about all of the goals I wanted to accomplish and the tasks I needed to complete in order to accomplish those goals. I let myself get completely overwhelmed. It’s a process I’ve repeated several times this past week. Finally, someone told me to stop freaking myself out and just do one thing at a time.

It’s obvious and I’m pretty sure I’ve blogged about breaking big goals down into smaller tasks and taking things one step at a time. But when it’s something I’m really passionate about, I get impatient. I want to do everything right now!

Between dance goals, writing goals, business goals, the day job and my two shepherd/huskies, it’s easy to start feeling like I can’t keep my head above water before I even begin trying to work on things. Then add in the stress of my financial tight-rope walking, and it’s hard to find the energy to do anything. But I want to do it all!

So I’m trying to stop freaking out and do one thing at a time. I discovered a feature on my phone’s Google calendar app that will help! In addition to adding events or reminders, you can add goals to your calendar. It has different categories and allows you to select how often and what time of day you want to work on your goal. I started out by adding a stretching goal. I’m aiming to stretch for about 15 minutes every day. A reminder pops up at the time I set and when I mark it as completed, it keeps a tally of how many days I completed my goal each week. If the tracking proves useful and motivating, I’ll add other goals to the calendar, like practice time.

Basically, I’m still on the rollercoaster, going through up and down days, productive and paralyzed. You would think I’d be used to it by now. It still can throw me for a loop though (pun intended).

In other fun news, did you see the big change I made? If you’re not following me on social media, I’ll fill you in. I chopped off my hair!

This will be the 5th or 6th time that I’ve done it. I always donate to an organization that makes real-hair wigs for people who need them, like cancer patients. It’s an easy way to give back and I get to try out a new look! What do you think?

This is the shortest I’ve ever gone, but I am LOVING it. I can’t wait to see how it looks with my competition dress and my tree tattoo. Frankly, I think it’s going to rock. Bonus: I won’t need to pay to have my hair done!

So I’ll keep moving forward and try to remember I don’t need to get everything done all at once. Wish me luck!


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